I was just going back through old posts on my Tumblr, and I saw ones of these text messages from Jason waaaay back when we first started dating. It has sparked me to pull out my old crackberry. It’s currently charging, but I hope the messages are still saved because I really want to go back through and read them.
Also, it was weird to read through these posts from 4 years ago. It was like reading another young girl’s blog, not mine. I’ve matured a lot, but I could feel for younger me, especially in the sadder posts.
Hello Tumblr, it’s been a while.
The semester is going okay. There are some things I’m super stoked about though these next few months
- Halloween party where I get to be Lana
- Actual Halloween day. I have printmaking, my favorite class, that day, and I think I’m going to be Esmeralda at work. Or maybe the Mad Hatter. I haven’t decided yet.
- November 6th Grand Funk Railroad is coming to the fair! Jason and I are totes seeing them
- The week of November 18th I start my part-time position as a ticketing agent with Spoleto :) I’m glad I made a good enough impression for them to ask if I wanted to work with them this upcoming season, and I’m actually working part-time instead of just an intern!
- December 22nd Jason and I are seeing The MythBusters! I cannot wait to see Adam and Jaime in real life. I think I may just die of happiness.
- Christmas, duh
- Mine and Jason’s 5 year anniversary. I cannot believe it will be 5 years soon. I love him so much
I’m excited about all of those things, but today I’ve just been kind of sad. I’m just tired of being disappointed by my friends. I feel like I care too much and then bam, my feelings get hurt, again. I’m not a bad friend, in fact, I like to think I’m a good friend, but this shit always happens.
Like when PF came to visit sometime last month, if I had not have texted him, he probably would not have talked to me, and I wouldn’t have hung out with him and Jason that night, even though throughout that week before he came we would text and he would tell me how excited he was to hang out with me. Bullshit.
Ugh. I’m so tired of this. The only person right now that doesn’t treat me like that is Jason. Which is good, since he’s my boyfriend and all, and I love him to pieces, but I just want one decent friend.
Speaking of which, one of mine and Jason’s friends apparently broke up with his girlfriend recently, which has made me been really appreciative of Jason. Not that I haven’t before, but ya know the whole ordeal of how people take things for granted, etc. But I really am grateful to have him in my life. He’s the only constant factor of happiness for me.
School has started. My classes seem alright. Spanish will be the death of me. My graphic design class is moving at such a slow pace it irks me. Marketing is meh, and financial arts management is kind of boring but at least I have a professor that is trying to make it interesting. Oh, and printmaking will be awesome, as per usual.
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